Tonight will be another sleepless night for me (and I'm sure Troy too). Tomorrow morning, at 7:45 we have my first ultrasound. I will be 6 weeks and 4 days tomorrow. This ultrasound is HUGE!!! This is where, if all goes well, we see the fetal heartbeat, where we find out if there are one or two babies....basically, this is the "make it or break it" of our IVF cycle. It has definitely been a long, difficult, and emotional road!
When I was at Kaiser yesterday getting my IV, the three nurses that were taking care of me all think that everything will be fantastic.....I guess they think that because hyperemesis gravidarum is a good sign that hormone levels are rising appropriately (and apparently it is also an indication of twins/multiples). That still doesn't settle my nerves. My nerves won't even begin to settle until I see that monitor tomorrow morning (I don't know if I will be able to look at first.....I think I'm going to wind up turning my head towards Troy and let him tell me....then I'll look). Once I see good results on the monitor, my nerves will settle a bit, but won't completely be settled until I have a baby (or babies) in my arms!
Anyways, Troy and I have been waiting for this ultrasound for what seems like forever! This wait has been harder than the two week wait we endured before I had my blood pregnancy test. Waiting, waiting, waiting, and more waiting. That's what my life consists of! I guess since I've waited and endured 3 and 1/2 years of fertility treatments, I can endure and wait this out!
